The first books Dad gave me were OLD MAN AND THE SEA and For Whom the Bell Tolls and from the age of eight, I started reading literature. Today while cleaning my drawers I found the notebook dad had given me to write the numbers and the names of the books.
I look at the first number and the name. It said, The Ten Commandments.

Later today:


I went to the Vegetable garden. Thinking the little girl perhaps one day will remember me in a garden.

The house smells of flowers, p says. I am washing the vegetables and tell him it�s the smell of these basils. They smell of Home, don�t they? He walks towards me and kisses me. They smell of you, he says.

The little girl is all dirty again. She has to go to bed soon. I need to finish a translation. I need to work. Earlier today I listened to the song you used to sing Maman. I danced your Sufi dance today. How painful Maman, I miss you. How exhausting, Maman, I want to forget you.