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دیشب جلوی در دانشگاه روی نیمکتی دراز کشیدم. پایین پاهام دوتا دختر سیاه پوست آمریکایی نشسته بودند و آواز می خوندند. سرم رو به نیمکت تکیه دادم. موهام از پشت روی دسته های سبزش، سیاه ریختند. با دخترا آهسته شروع به خوندن کردم... شعرای کودکی شونو می خوندند که با شعرای مهد کودک دختر من هم آهنگ... ولی با شعرهای کودکی من زمین تا آسمون فرق دارند. سروده های دختر کوچولو، پر از شعارهای انقلابی نیست... زیر فشار و اختناق هم خونده نمی شه...

چشمام رو بستم تا رخوت شیرین آزادی وجودم رو گرم کند که...

یک بوق آهسته... پ و دختر کوچولو آمدن دنبالم
خنده خواب آلود دختر قشنگم و بوسه مهربانانه پ ...

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...چند روز پیش دستم رفت لای در

دختر کوچولو: مانی! چی شد؟ درد می ده؟
شیما: آره عزیزم درد می کنه.
دختر کوچولو: کجاشه؟ ببینم...
شیما: اینجا س عزیزم.
دختر کوچولو: لباشو می زاره روی خط سرخ و بوس صداداررر.

آخ که دلم رفت!

  

 

Earlier today I was talking to Sayeh Saeedi Sirjani regarding Kianoosh Sanjari's health and well being. As some of you know he was found in suicidal conditions. Sanjari along with Manoochehr Mohammadi, Ahmad Batebi, Akbar Mohammadi, Dr. Farzad Hamidi are just a few of many of the young men who have been charged for their involvement in the Iran Democratic Front. Since 1999 they have either disappeared, are in the prisons of the Islamic Republic of Iran or like the regime's latest victim are forced to commit suicide. What Sayeh emphasized on was that Sanjari repeatedly told Sayeh: I love life!

You can come to your own conclusions. You can choose to believe what you want but I know if one has the basic human rights s/he would never in his or her right mind do such a desperate act.

  

 

I am neither a precious angel
nor intend to leave a legacy.

I am who I am.

Sheema Kalbasi

  

 

jumbled up thoughts...

تکه تکه های خستگی

پشت ویترین یازده سپتامبر سیاه
همه آماده
منتظر دو قلوهای تازه سازند
تو، این وسطا دنبال
یک مشت- مال دبش

یک سلایس پیتزا
مانیکور و یک تیکه کیک
خونه ساکت بی سر و صدا

اگر روز مادری بود
همون روز- مادرای قدیم
توزودتر از پدر می دویدی واسه مادر
گل مریم می خریدی
اما حالا وقتی خودت مادر شدی
یک مشت-مال

یک سلایس پیتزا
مانیکور و یک تیکه کیک
خونه ساکت بی سر و صدا
روز مادر مبارکت باشه شیما!


می دونم امروز روز مادر نیست ولی این نوشته را که لابه لای نوشته هام پیدا کردم گفتم برای خودم اینجا بگذارم که یادم نره منم هستم.

  

 

The recent conflict in the Iranian literary community in Diaspora is both distracting and distressful. Like everything else this circus shows the readiness to kill in order to win! Forget Bahaies, Mojahids, Communists, Nationalists who were executed by the Islamic Republic of Iran... lets bite each other's head off in the name of Persian poetry!

  

 

A few of my poems in Persian on Hamhameh
And here
Maryam Hooleh 's poetry reading... and this is a great poem by Mana Aghaee whose poetry has a unique voice.
... last but not least my thanks to my blogger friend Halle, for helping me to post in Persian.

  

 

I walked slowly and silently beyond the night's deep sigh... and now that the night has passed and the sharp fingers of realization are replaced by P's smooth touch and his embracing and joyous spirit... I open my eyes from the night's blinding sorrow. I try to cherish this moment instead of being dead among the living.

It is a gorgeous day.

  

 

I was talking to Dr. Naficy tonight and for the first time... publicly discussed the pain over losing my mother to Breast Cancer... a pink ribbon on my chest and her jacket around my body are what keep me going at nights when sitting in the cold classrooms. The fading fragment of her Chloe perfume... on my skin... around my neck, shoulders and my breasts... breasts that have to be examined every year now... just to be on the safe side... and not to make my family the victims of Breast Cancer again!

I am sad.

  

 

The world of words,
Crushes their falseness
And they try to conceal
their dishonesty and the ignorance.

Alas! Their bitterness is over a badge of fame!

Sheema Kalbasi

  

 

I had not heard any thing this absurd! "A plane bound for Washington from London was diverted to Maine on Tuesday after passenger Yusuf Islam --formerly known as pop singer Cat Stevens-- showed up on a U.S. watch list, federal officials said."
CNN Tuesday, September 21, 2004 Posted: 10:18 PM EDT (0218 GMT)

  

 

"What in me is dark Illumine,
what is low raise and support
That to the height of this great argument
I may assert eternal Providence,
And justify the ways of God to men."

-John Milton

  

 

EMROOZ

NOTE: The following posting is by no means an indication of my agreement with the contents of Emrooz or Rooydad or with the view points of their publishers. It is merely based on my belief in freedom of expression. A belief which is probably not even shared by the publishers of these sites.


It is Monday Morning in Iran. My name is Sheema Kalbasi and am hosting, translating and posting a few links from "Emrooz".


Saeed Motallebi is released.

The political activists, journalists and university students’ letter on the third anniversary of September 11.

Reza Kianian, a famous Iranian actor on the edge of arrest.

The Iranian judiciary and the disgrace. Who has earned his degree from the University of Hawaii?

The friendship: Hosni Mobarak and Khatami?

Journalists without frontiers: Release the three Iranian Journalists.

Mafi: An Iranian woman as the new governor of Shemiranat/Tehran.

The future of Presidency in Iran.

Zohreh Aghajari on the Iranian women’s Hijab: This generation is not imported!

  

 

The mullahcracy in Iran needs serious amount of kickboxing... for us... to get rid of them but to practice democracy and to show respect to the Iranian blogger sisters and brothers, on Monday... Sheema Kalbasi (myself) will be hosting, translating and posting the news from the two reformist news websites, Emrooz and Rooydad.

Free Saeed Motallebi, Ghafooriazar, Rafizade and Mozroui...

what a joke: 2,500-year-old charter of human rights to revisit Iran... and it is to revisit Iran when the nation is choked to limpness!

  

 

I have Orkut-ed the previous post... because that way some 3000 people will know about the recent arrests in Iran.

  

 

Stop Such and Such Crimes...

When you read about the murderess and serial killers in the West, you think to yourself how can one person commit "such" crimes- to slash another human's throat or choke someone to death. When "such" acts are done collectively by regimes "such" as the Iranian government, the criminals are rewarded by the European countries, get recognition by the Islamic nations and ridiculously threatened by the poorly organized opposition groups outside the country.

These powerful-dragonhead-men will never get arrested or persecuted and punished for their crimes against humanity. They continue arresting; executing their victims and the rest of the nation is choked to limpness! The recent arrests of Motallebi (a film maker,) and three other journalist/ poet/ bloggers are only some examples of the ongoing crimes committed by the regime in Iran.

  

 

a poem... for her...

  

 

My little girl apparently loves going to the daycare. This morning you could hear the pride in her voice when saying goodbye to her dad and marching towards the car for the manni (she calls me,) to drive her to school.

Maryam Hooleh & Hooman Azizi ... have a weblog now.
...and review... a persian-english blog.

  

 

We can lie in the language of dress or try to tell the truth; but unless we are naked and bald, it is impossible to be silent. - Alison Lurie

Free Said Motallebi...

  

 

2,500-year-old charter of human rights to revisit Iran


"I wanted to scream and tell him that taking the life of a human should not be turned into a street show where everyone is welcome to watch; this is against every principle of humanity, crucial principles that do not recognize whether you are Iranian or American. I am against all forms of capital punishment." This is part of an article by Mr. Saffari on the Iranian Times.


also: PersianMirror it's the modern magazine for Persian weddings, culture, cuisine & community.

and: I know this kind lady and here is what she'd written in Dec.2003 when... I lost my mom (in Persian).

  

 

I translate this line from the blog of Motallebi's daughter-in-law (this is just to portray the torture of Motallebi family at Home and in exile).

"Today is Mani's birthday but my heart is not set to write. It's Wednesday... dad, Where Are You?"

Said Motallebi...

  

 

Condemnation of Child Executions in Iran

After I left a "Help us" note on Michael J. Totten's blog, he signed the petition. I like to thank him for caring. David, from the comment section... has labeled me a peacenik. Well Davidson, believe it or not Petitions do work. Last year... Sina Motallebi, an Iranian journalist-blogger was released after being arrested for blogging!

Sign the Petition, please.

on another note:

Derakhshan blogs:

Sina's dad arrested
September 12, 2004

"The angry judiciary officials have now arrested Sina Motallebi's father. I guess it's because Sina flee Iran and didn't remain silent about what had happened to him during his 21 days of detention."

Said Motallebi...

  

 

Today I don't know what to write... or see or say...

Today I learned Sina Motallebi's father is got arrested in Iran. He is arrested because his son is a journalist/blogger...

...and read Maryam's story...

  

 

In English you can read: Amnesty's report or in French

  

 

Stop Censoring Us

Three more journalists/bloggers (Ghafooriazar, Rafizade and Mozroui)have been arrested in Tehran/Iran.

  

 

The oil -power- is the wining card for either of the players, the West or the Jihadis.

A nightmare

Taliban Verses West
Taliban verses the U.S.
Taliban verses the E.U
Taliban verses Saudi Arabia
Taliban verses Taliban


Iran verses The U.S.
Iran verses the E.U
Iran verses Iraq
Iraq verses the U.S.
Iraq verses E.U.
Iraq verses Iran
Iraq verses Iraq

U.S. verses Taliban
U.S. verses Europe
U.S. verses Iraq
U.S. verses Iran
U.S. verses Saudi Arabia
U.S. government verses U.S. population...tion...tion...

I have not even mentioned the Israeli - Palestine conflict,
And this is just Middle East verses the rest of the World

I guess some of us come to the world to change it for "better or worse".

  

 

Stop Censoring Us

Three more journalists/bloggers (Ghafooriazar, Rafizade and Mozroui)have been arrested in Tehran/Iran.

Names of 4483 political prisoners executed in 1988 in the jails of the oppressive regime of Iran!

Roshanak Bigonah has started a poetry section on her site. It is called "Not Forgetting Those Who Were Killed". My (Persian) poem "The mass graves" is also part of the collection.

Motallebi...

  

 

My 30 months old girl and her Barney are off to school (I am chewing my nails from worrying for my girl.) I drove there two hours after I left her (and the Barney)at the day care and called an hour later. P is even more concerned and has called three times-so far. The difference between P (my husband) and Sheema (myself) is that I loved going to school as a child and he did not and each are looking at the little girl's first day... with our first day of school memories... Sheema: happy and smiling... marching to school, P: not wanting to leave his Mama.

  

 

Sedaayeh Eshgh

  

 

okay! I just did this Leader Test and the results show that I am not Sheema Kalbasi but

What Famous Leader Are You?
personality tests by similarminds.com

(link via In Bill's World)

  

 

Andrew Sullivan's tonight talk on Real Time is great. I just can't stop agreeing with most issues he is discussing... have to go watch the rest. Has he converted from Democratism to Conservatism?

...and yes next to Michael Totten... Sullivan is one of my favorite non-Iranian bloggers.

  

 

just a few links...

Mandana Zandian's poem.

for those who were killed.

poetrism is out.

and nokte.

  

 

My blog is the journal of my thoughts, my life... free...uncensored, most of the time not even edited...now I don't know if I can continue writing. The truth is I don't want him to know of what is happening in my life!

I have been Evaluating our friendship...
and Realized I am too honest
for your dishonesty,
Your ego is riding you like a horse!


I am debating... haven't concluded yet.