Wednesday, September 24, 2003

a few nights ago... We (P, the baby and I) were driving to Barnes & Noble to check some books and I heard Salam Pax on the NPR. P's hand goes to change the station. Sheema: No, let us hear. It's Salam Pax's interview. P: Who is Salam Pax? Sheema: The Baghdad Bloger P: That guy! Okay, sure let us hear what he says. ...after a while... P: Why these radios don't interview Iranian bloggers? What was the name of that Journalist bloger? Wasn't it Sina? Why don't they interview Sina Mottalebi? Or you? Between the baby's constant request to sing her Barney's song and P talking about the Iranian students in the prisions of the regime, I only heard something like: I will not leave Iraq. It is a historic time and I don't want to miss it (...You can hear his interview on the Fresh Air and here is G's blog. Last May, I let my readers know that Salam Pax was back on line...so he already is part of the zaneirani-readers-family...) Last night I put the little girl in her bed and went to open the window...and as hours passed, the images waltzed their way into the "Good Night Baby Girl" and so I gave birth to a new poem.

"Good Night Baby Girl" 

 I open the window so that 
she can hear the sound of the night,
so that she can smell the fresh scent, 
and when the rain starts she will hear 
her mama again walking quietly 
as a breeze of air to cover her 
from the cool of the storm. 

Watch her gently as she stirs slightly, 
amazed by the face, so small and innocent, 
that reflects the generations back 
through untold time, that moves 
toward a future shaped and molded 
by who we are, by from where we came, 
by the question mark of where we are today. 

Notice the little hand that clutches the blanket, 
so perfectly formed, sculpted by love 
and the grace of God, the hand which 
someday perhaps will cover 
with a blanket her own baby girl 
and remember the moments 
when she was young and knew 
even in her sleep that mama was there. 

Reach down and the fingers so tiny, 
so fragile yet so strong in their quiet 
slumbered love unconsciously 
wrap around mine and transmit pulse 
through my body, circling, snaking, dancing 
through me with a warmth that runs 
from my heart to my womb, and reminds me
of the bond that will connect us as long as she lives. 

Tip-toe from her room and return to mine, 
slip between the blankets lest I rouse him 
from his rest, although I wouldn't mind, 
for at this moment it would be wonderful 
to disappear into a small nested universe 
where twined beneath the lullaby of the rain 
we would remember the miracle 
 from which she came.